Bummed about my situation.

I have to find a job. I am putting the kabosh on my career as a teacher, well, at least within my school district. I lose my position every summer and I stress and stress that I need to find a job only to be called back to yet another school and usually just days before school starts. That's getting used to a new staff, new school policies and guidlines, a new boss, yadda yadda EVERY YEAR. I shouldn't complain, at least I've been called back but still. It takes its toll.

So now I am searching for work. Only it isn't as simple as finding a job I might like and applying. I have parameters and restrictions not on the type of job but the hours. My husband asks, "Well, what do you want to do?" Man, if it were only a question of finding what I want to do, I wouldn't be such a nutcase about this. I would love to find something I want to do only I have all these things holding me back, namely:

Not that they are keeping me from doing anything because I'd rather be with them than have any career in the world. But, when you need to make mortgage payments Momma's gotta bring in some dough.

I thought about working an early shift at Starbucks or something but husband leaves for work early and there's no way we're dropping the kids off somewhere at 6:30 in the morning.

I thought I'd find a job working in the evening but husband doesn't get home til after 7pm most days and he travels- sometimes last minute. Makes childcare difficult.

I could work while the kids are in school and have my mom watch the baby but that gives me Tuesday and Thursday from 9-12. Hm.

I know my best friend is in a similar predicament so I can't be so lame as to feel too sorry for myself. Heck, most moms I know have faced these challenges. I would like to find something I could do from home but most things like that seem like scams. Oy. I trust that the right thing will come along but if that job could hurry up and reveal itself to me, that would be great.